The Snooze Button

Usually when my alarm goes off, I automatically just press the snooze button. All I want is a "few more minutes" but I end up sleeping for another hour or so. Meh. I just don't feel like getting up and ruining a perfectly good night's sleep. We all know that waking is hard to do in the mornings. It just doesn't feel comfortable sometimes. And then it usually takes ten or so minutes to feel fully awake after I actually get out of bed. Nonetheless, being awake and living out my day feels much better than completely wasting my life away by sleeping...

Okay, so how does this affect my life? How is this a constant reminder? Well, let me tell you. The snooze button... those are the moments I am disobedient to God. They're the times I know I need to be doing something, but I'm not because I'm too scared. They're the decisions and actions I put off until the last minute, and sometimes that's a little too late.... Again, it's those moments where you know God is telling you to do something, but you do the opposite, you just pretend to ignore it or you sleep right through it because it's completely out of your comfort zone? Yup... that's where I am right now. I'm in that exact position. And I hate it. It's that moment when all you want to do is press the snooze button. It's that moment when you're lying comfortably in your bed, not wanting to move, but deep down you know you have to get up so you won't be late for class... 

I look back on the last couple of days, and I can see how many times I've pressed that snooze button. And I know it's just gonna get worse and worse if I keep pressing it. I'm at the point where I just need to WAKE UP. I need to get out of my comfortable bed (and my little comfort zone) and be okay with feeling uncomfortable for a little bit. Because in the long run, I'll feel refreshed later on... And I won't have to go on living life, regretting the days I've wasted sleeping or the good moments I let myself pass by. 

When my life is over and done with,I don't want God to have to settle in giving me the second best for my life, just because of my disobedience to Him. He wants to give me the best (which I SOOO desire) and I'm realizing more and more that I just need to have enough courage to go through a little more pain to get there.....

I'm not sure how long this is gonna take for me to actually get out of bed and "wake up." I'll be completely honest and say that this is something I'm trying to postpone as long as possible, but I know I can't much longer. I could say I'm trying to wait for the right time and words, but if I don't at least make one small step, I'll be sleeping for much longer than necessary. I might even sleep though the entire day, which is a major problem. So, I know I just need to make that first step... somehow.... and God will take care of the rest. I trust in that....

*this post was inspired by yesterday's message at Newberg Foursquare Church.