those consequences that I faced 3 years ago came back tonight. At least I think it did... AND IT HURT REAL BAD. The words that were said hurt. The tears and memories that were revisited also hurt. I literally had nothing else to say, except "WHY, GOD?!" Why do these things keep happening? Why do I have to remember the hurt I faced years ago? Why do the people I hurt then still hurt? I just don't understand. I've changed so much within those years that it breaks my heart thinking about how similar things have gone back (in a sense) to how they were 3 years ago.
I guess it means God is not done yet. He's not done refining me... or those I've encountered. I have to keep faith and press forward. I can't go back to my old ways. God's brought me too far to do that.
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